One thing I want to do

I  want to please everyone

I don’t want anyone to be mad at me

I don’t want anyone to feel bad because I  disagree with their opinion 

I am scared that my speaking out may bring me trouble

I want everyone to see me as “the good”

I do not want people to know my stance in some matters because they may win the argument that follows, making me feel bad

I don’t want the public to have a negative opinion about me

If I must write or speak in public,it will be only what I  feel people will accept

Thus,I refuse to be freely me and speak the truth I am convinced of

I refuse to have a say because of fear of rejection

I refuse to say or act right because of fear of not getting everyone’s approval

I remain in my shell

Rearing out my head only behind the masses

Nodding in approval at other people’s stories and convinction

I do not want to be criticised for anything because I will feel hurt

I do not want someone to question my dreams and goals because I don’t want to feel bad

I refuse to speak the truth or act right just because I am afraid of how people will react

I refuse to take bold steps because the world may think I am stupid

I  have refused to do one thing, just because of what people may say

Until I understand that I may be the voice of that voiceless group of people who I do not even know

Until I am ready to absorb criticisms, stand firm on what I believe without being swayed by just any wind that blows

Until I am ready to stand for something and not just sit on the fence

Until I am ready to voice my opinion without fear of people calling it a stupid opinion,even if they do

Then I am ready to do that one thing

I am ready to grow

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The many lies I told

As a child, the people within my community told me that I was a special kid.
They told me how different I was among my peers.
They said these because they believed I was very intelligent.

Funny enough, their analysis of intelligence was only because I could read from an elementary five(5) class Reader textbook¬† fluently while I was in elementary three(3) class….lol.

With all the childhood love from my community, I did not hesitate to believe that I was naturally or rather born intelligent……what a lie.

Unfortunately, I did not realize that knowledge is  not usually innate but acquired and that success is usually preceded by hardwork, until¬† I went in for a biology test without preparing for it.
My lovely teacher graced my answer sheet with a beautiful Zero score.
My teacher, being kind enough, did not fail to include my large eyes and nose within the big Zero I scored….lol

When I advanced into my teen years, one of my friends gave me a book on temperament, written by Tim Lahaye, titled, “why you act the way you do”.

When I opened the first few pages, it contained some difficult truths.
I refused to accept the glaring temperament to which I belonged because the weaknesses associated with it were too “sinful” to be accepted, as I made myself believe.

After I flipped through a few more chapters, I quickly concluded that I had the Holy Spirit-controlled temperament…… another big lie.

You know what that meant? 
I declared myself perfect, devoid of weaknesses and therefore had no mistake to be corrected.

You also know the effect?
I refused growth in some areas of my life and truly, there is nothing as immature as refusing to accept you have a fault and consequently refusing to be corrected and grow.

What lies have you been telling yourself?
You can deceive other people, but not yourself.
If you refuse to accept some truths about you and about life in general, and one of the uncertainties of life hits you, trust me, recovery from it will exhaust you except the grace of God finds you.

To my religious brethren, especially the supposed faith-laden ones, no one says you should not believe you are healed when your health is actually deteriorating, neither do I say you should not believe you have money when your wallet makes you cry like it was onions.

Tell yourselves the truth and work hard to make some earnings, visit the nearest health centre for God to use the health workers and restore your health.
Nevertheless, I believe in miracles.

Even our Lord Jesus Christ will tell you to carry your cross and follow Him.
No cross, no crown!
Accept your weaknesses and incapabilities and allow Jesus perfect your imperfections.
Probably this post made me choose my favorite verse this week, “Let him that thinks he stands take heed, lest he falls” 1 Cor 10:12.
Brethren, tell yourselves the truth.

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